Mad

Sometimes you may feel mad at yourselves.
Like i did today.
The feeling was helpless.

Sometimes i wonder when will my clumsiness ever go away?
When will i change to me more mature.

THEN.

I think of the future where i need to stand with my own feet.
When my parents no longer in my reach ,
will i be okay?

AND.

When that thought came into my mind,
and my overthinking flows like a river,
I imagined a lot of possible occurrence,
And start counting the numbers.

BUT.

When reality hits for the time again,
And the madness still don't go away,
Repeating the first verse over again.
I knew I'm not going anywhere.